xoxo

...and i didn't even know his name.
it was wild.
it felt like fire.
later that night i killed him.
i took his money and i bought shoes.

no pants.
no hat.
no socks.
no shirt.
just knickers and my new pumps.

xoxo

- 2010

Spiders

I remember as if it was yesterday, when you held my hand and held my heart. You promised you will never let go, and you swore lies never danced off your tongue.

Your hands were like spiders, crawling around my waist and down my thighs; baby, didn't you know that spiders haunted my dreams? You didn't know much.

You spoke of freedom and love and life, but you made it all up to catch me in your web, to catch me in your lies. You knew nothing of love but you liked to pretend, and the freedom you swore was an excuse for the sea.

The life inside you was not life at all, it was as dead as a corpse and blackened, you whore. But now it's tomorrow and I can stop with these games of pretending to love you, I danced with lies too.

- 2009

summer drum.

you promised to take me dancing,
to that kooky pop tune -
the one with the distorted guitar and stepping melody.

we pretended that we were in the sixties.
we pretended that we were dancing for each other.

i was dancing with time, and you were dancing with lust.
the hands of the clock struck as yours struck all over me.
you felt me and you held me, you kissed me and smothered me.

our young laughter staind in the humid air,
and the summer sun faded over the horizon.
we were only left with the beat of the drum,
and we danced the night away.

you promised to take me dancing,
and for a night
we pretended that we were in the sixties.

- 2009